I feel duped at this point. The doctors, blogs and baby books were all very clear–this pregnancy business will last 40weeks. And yet, here I am, exactly at 41weeks today with no signs of labor. My belly is still painfully swollen and the baby continues to stretch and arch without any seeming interest in ever moving out.
My google search history alternates exclusively between “natural ways to induce labor” and “earliest signs of labor”. The “what-ifs” and “what will be’s” rolling through my brain like the world’s worst broken record. Honestly, the longer I have to wait, the worse my anxiety gets. The longer he/she stays in there, the more I think about all the things that could go wrong….what if the times comes and I’m pushing but the baby is too big for me to deliver vaginally and then have to do an emergency C-section?
Although I have already set a date to be induced, I honestly want everything to happen naturally because this is my first pregnancy. But this baby is as stubborn as I am and does not show any signs of wanting to come out just yet. Let me just say the past few days my anxiety has been through the roof!